A NOTE OF THANKS!

At times I think very highly of myself. I mean, am a very optimistic person. (Well... Maybe in a heavy dose!) I believe in God and his tricks. And I make friends quite easily. To be frank, I guess that’s one of my traits am very proud of. But I guess that’s one thing I should be very careful about too. (God alone knows who all to trust!) I am a very friendly person. I have a hell lot of friends. They are my greatest treasure. I always try to do everything (and anything) under my control to keep them happy. Yet I hurt them. There was this instance when I had a very big misunderstanding with one of my best friends. I avoided him for how long, I have got no idea. I averted my eyes whenever he came into my sight. I kept my distance from him. Even though it ate me from within not to talk to him, I was adamant. Later on, we sorted out the problems between us. The fights between us have never lasted long. (Thank God!) It was one of those days that he came to me and gave me his pen-drive. There was this message from him which moved my heart. He had written it while we were at the fight.


Nothing much these days… Just a weird feeling there in my heart, a feeling of something seriously bad is going to happen. I am not happy, I miss my best friend. She is now not talking to me properly, I seriously don’t know the reason, I might have done something that eventually made her upset but then she won’t tell me either. Am I that bad now or is my value in her life going down? I don’t want her to love me as a lover but I want her to care about me as a best friend, at least, like I do about her. I seriously do miss her in my life, be it for a second, a minute or even an hour, her very own thought makes me jump off my feet out of joy. Now when I think of her I feel sad, the absence of her is creeping inside me like a dark night. I love her as my best friend I don’t want anything else from her but her friendship. One and a half year and I’ll be gone from this place, I don’t know whether people will remember me or not I seriously don’t know and I seriously don’t care.


All I want from God is that she never forgets me. I don’t know what I will do; I am clenched by this feeling… Every time she is not talking to me I am paralyzed, not able to do anything… All I can do is to feel. I feel her in my every breath, every heart beat, and every blink of my eyes. The trauma, the agony, I don’t know how long will I be able to handle these, I will give up one day. The pain is piling in my heart, I am afraid it will burst out one day, which I don’t want to happen but I am not able to prevent it from making me hollow from inside. I have thought of smoking and drinking to ease out my anxiety, which is entangling me, but then she comes in front of me, her face, the smile, the voice, the promise which I made to her, it all flashes in my mind. Is there in any end to this thing? I am tired of asking her to love me. I can’t force anyone to love me… I guess I have to learn, even if it has to be the hard way. All my wishes to her… Let my all happiness be hers and all her sorrows are mine. I love you, you are my world and I am incomplete without your friendship… You are the part which solves the puzzle of my life. I can live without food and water for days but I won’t last a minute without you… You are my friend forever. You are the special friend whom I have always dreamt of.


Dear Friend... Just want you to know... Even though we have fought (the number of times being ENDLESS!) I have always wanted you back. I can find only one reason for that. I am INCOMPLETE without you – your smile (which can turn the world right for me), your innocence (which is the purest I have ever seen), your support (without which I would have fallen long before), your love (which is unconditional), your friendship (which is unremitting) and above all, your firm belief in me. Thank You.